2009.08.31
Changing the direction
Just realised how much I need to push for my major project!! And this affects the way I've been "played" with momoko until now!!
Time to move on! Goodbye flickr for now! I will be back and hopefully everything will be different!
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My husband said this is sound drastic to put all the photos to privacy. Uhmmm...It's the way I'm over extreme again I guess.
But really I need discipline myself. Otherwise, the whole major project will happened on flickr only and I'm not actually do anything for uni.
Kind of a self punishment so that I could work harder and going back to Flickr soon. ---> Dealing with procrastination in the project.
Time to move on! Goodbye flickr for now! I will be back and hopefully everything will be different!
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My husband said this is sound drastic to put all the photos to privacy. Uhmmm...It's the way I'm over extreme again I guess.
But really I need discipline myself. Otherwise, the whole major project will happened on flickr only and I'm not actually do anything for uni.
Kind of a self punishment so that I could work harder and going back to Flickr soon. ---> Dealing with procrastination in the project.
2009.08.30
Envy
My husband used to be a doll collector before. He collected mostly antique doll and baby doll.
Then he stopped collecting for nearly 5 years now. He never imagined when we got married that I become a doll collector. Life is strange, things work out in a very funny way. Sometime, we can see that it's like a pattern in life. Uhm...Anyway, talking about jealousy.
My husband told me "Doll people is very nice. They're very helpful to you. But as soon as your collection is better than them, they hate you forever"! hehehe So funny! As soon as he said that, I immediately reflect on myself. Since we all go through the "jealousy" period in our life, we all know how it feel and how to make other feel the pain :D Yes, I do feel irritated when someone have better collection than mine. But that doesn't mean I hate them :D hehe I'm trying! No, not really, I don't really feel that way so much anymore. It just give me a stronger sense of "making statement". Like ... "We'll see who loves momoko more"...kind of feeling! :D Awww, I'm so childish! hehe But I love the way I am :D
Awww, how I love talking those "sensitive" topic so much!!! Just try to be provokative! :D It's fun!! Sometime you need to parody yourself in order to laugh and move on.
By the way, I love to know how I feel. I know the pain, the ugliness of jealousy and envy over someone else momoko. But trust me, those feeling seems so positive to me. Driven!! :D
It's a creative process more than a competition to me.
"Earthly desire is enlightenment!"
Just went to a lecture about the history of fashion and consumerism. It was so fascinated! It remind me not to look at the world as black and white, good and evil. Life is not that simple as we want it to be! We tend to see thing in that way and it really stop us to see a bigger picture.
Uhm....Envy, jealousy :D Life is interesting!!!
Then he stopped collecting for nearly 5 years now. He never imagined when we got married that I become a doll collector. Life is strange, things work out in a very funny way. Sometime, we can see that it's like a pattern in life. Uhm...Anyway, talking about jealousy.
My husband told me "Doll people is very nice. They're very helpful to you. But as soon as your collection is better than them, they hate you forever"! hehehe So funny! As soon as he said that, I immediately reflect on myself. Since we all go through the "jealousy" period in our life, we all know how it feel and how to make other feel the pain :D Yes, I do feel irritated when someone have better collection than mine. But that doesn't mean I hate them :D hehe I'm trying! No, not really, I don't really feel that way so much anymore. It just give me a stronger sense of "making statement". Like ... "We'll see who loves momoko more"...kind of feeling! :D Awww, I'm so childish! hehe But I love the way I am :D
Awww, how I love talking those "sensitive" topic so much!!! Just try to be provokative! :D It's fun!! Sometime you need to parody yourself in order to laugh and move on.
By the way, I love to know how I feel. I know the pain, the ugliness of jealousy and envy over someone else momoko. But trust me, those feeling seems so positive to me. Driven!! :D
It's a creative process more than a competition to me.
"Earthly desire is enlightenment!"
Just went to a lecture about the history of fashion and consumerism. It was so fascinated! It remind me not to look at the world as black and white, good and evil. Life is not that simple as we want it to be! We tend to see thing in that way and it really stop us to see a bigger picture.
Uhm....Envy, jealousy :D Life is interesting!!!
2009.08.29
Momoko Fanatic
My husband told me the word "Fan" is a short version of Fanatic! :D It's great to know!! :D
Somehow I feel it kind of similar like the word "Otaku". I know "Otaku" has a very negative connotation in Japan. But somehow, western fan give and mis-use it and it become nicer connotation among fan here in the West. It's passionate fan!
I asked my husband if I'm momoko fanatic :D hehe Do I have to ask ? :D
I realised that this year, I used up more than 25GB on my laptop just for momoko photos.
I also collect all of momoko photos by fan around the world. So just want to let you know if you don't want your momoko photos in my computer, just don't post them online ever again hehehhe :D
Nah! I'm not that bad :D I just save all the one that I love. There are so many crappy momoko photos around though. But crap to me may be good for someone else :D
I'm a little bit happier lately, a little bit less stress. I now started to enjoy my major project.
Last chance to do something fun while I'm still at uni. Uhmm....I should enjoy it!
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Good new
Dream Theater come to Sydney this December. Their concert day is also my birthday :D YAY!!! Good way to spend a Bday :D 5th December!!! Ahhh, would love to see John Myung in person. Love Dream Theater nearly 10 years now :D
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Somehow I feel it kind of similar like the word "Otaku". I know "Otaku" has a very negative connotation in Japan. But somehow, western fan give and mis-use it and it become nicer connotation among fan here in the West. It's passionate fan!
I asked my husband if I'm momoko fanatic :D hehe Do I have to ask ? :D
I realised that this year, I used up more than 25GB on my laptop just for momoko photos.
I also collect all of momoko photos by fan around the world. So just want to let you know if you don't want your momoko photos in my computer, just don't post them online ever again hehehhe :D
Nah! I'm not that bad :D I just save all the one that I love. There are so many crappy momoko photos around though. But crap to me may be good for someone else :D
I'm a little bit happier lately, a little bit less stress. I now started to enjoy my major project.
Last chance to do something fun while I'm still at uni. Uhmm....I should enjoy it!
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Good new
Dream Theater come to Sydney this December. Their concert day is also my birthday :D YAY!!! Good way to spend a Bday :D 5th December!!! Ahhh, would love to see John Myung in person. Love Dream Theater nearly 10 years now :D
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2009.08.22
DIY kind of crap!
I wonder when did this whole thing of DIY happened ? From typography, design, to craft, doll....
It's just there are so many junks out there in the internet. It's like a big rubbish bin of all kind of trash. Gosh, I don't want to look down on anyone but there are so many "stuff" being made for the sake of making it. Absolutely rubbish! It's visually stupid. No taste, no ideas of what's the purpose of making it.
Just kill me! I rather blind than seeing those digusting stuff like that!
Sure you can develop your visual and aesthetic over time and by doing it again and again, the thing is....for now, I just can't stand it.
Instant vomit!
Dealing with depression at the moment since the major project is a big monster that sucking my energy and joy. I should be enjoying the process but for now what I need is a good rest.
No more internet, flickr and so on.
Momoko...I wonder if I own her or she OWNS me!!!
It's just there are so many junks out there in the internet. It's like a big rubbish bin of all kind of trash. Gosh, I don't want to look down on anyone but there are so many "stuff" being made for the sake of making it. Absolutely rubbish! It's visually stupid. No taste, no ideas of what's the purpose of making it.
Just kill me! I rather blind than seeing those digusting stuff like that!
Sure you can develop your visual and aesthetic over time and by doing it again and again, the thing is....for now, I just can't stand it.
Instant vomit!
Dealing with depression at the moment since the major project is a big monster that sucking my energy and joy. I should be enjoying the process but for now what I need is a good rest.
No more internet, flickr and so on.
Momoko...I wonder if I own her or she OWNS me!!!
2009.08.16
How do we live ?
Gosh, the more I doing my major project, the more deep issue I'm stepping in.
Fashion -> Planned-obsolescence -> Consumerism -> Capitalism -> Sustainable -> on and on
Do we live to create or to destroy ? or something else ?
How do I live my life ?
I love Vivienne Westwood for the person she is. Caring for the world that she lives in.
My mentor, Greg used to said this "We change from the within". And yes, we can only change from living with it, understand it, from the within, not without. How do I determined what I'm going to create for this beautiful earth I'm living in ? How can I use the most out of this little time I have in this life ?
Vivienne said " Go deep!", "Understand the world you live in". And yet, I'm trying and confusing at the same time.
Still researching and framing my brief for the major project. I think academic study is great. It does help you become a better person. Still, you need to decide what kind of person you want to become but study does help.
Trying and learning!!
Like all youth, I want to change the world. Though, I do know that here, right now is the place to be!
Fashion -> Planned-obsolescence -> Consumerism -> Capitalism -> Sustainable -> on and on
Do we live to create or to destroy ? or something else ?
How do I live my life ?
I love Vivienne Westwood for the person she is. Caring for the world that she lives in.
My mentor, Greg used to said this "We change from the within". And yes, we can only change from living with it, understand it, from the within, not without. How do I determined what I'm going to create for this beautiful earth I'm living in ? How can I use the most out of this little time I have in this life ?
Vivienne said " Go deep!", "Understand the world you live in". And yet, I'm trying and confusing at the same time.
Still researching and framing my brief for the major project. I think academic study is great. It does help you become a better person. Still, you need to decide what kind of person you want to become but study does help.
Trying and learning!!
Like all youth, I want to change the world. Though, I do know that here, right now is the place to be!